independence

I hate relying on people.
I hate being at the mercy of other people to go places and do things.
It adds so much stress to everything else that I am already going through.
I am seriously being pulled in 800 different directions and I don't know how much more I can take of it.

I hate judgment.
One reason why I want to travel...I want to run as far away as it as possible. I try so hard not to care what people think, but I inevitably do. Everyone inevitably does.
There would be SO much you wouldn't worry about if you didn't.
you would just enjoy life instead of stressing about imperfections and striving to be the best.
Why don't we just strive to be our best.

8 days.

rough times.

Aug. 28th, 2009

I went climbing at Aiguille indoor rock climbing gym by myself. why? because no one wanted to go with me.
I was in the lead cave, by myself. I finished a boulder problem, jumped down, and my ankle gave out.
Emergency room with strangers...again by myself.

Broken ankle, third degree sprain. Surgery with two screws.

Today I am

Currently in green cast on right leg. October 22nd is when I get this thing off. TG.




Sept 16th, 2009
I became an aunt to the most beautiful baby girl in the world...Ava Chase Donoghue.

sleeping isn't sound

I wake up. Several times. Trying to escape you.


I wish you were here. Instead of 3 years away.

*Me

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new habits.old times.

When you let dust collect on what once was your escape...it may not sound like it used to when touched, but quiet solitude becomes a beautiful serenade of memories bouncing off keys with an 8-year-olds finger prints hanging on for dear life.

I'm a friend who listens to the past tell her everything doesn't exist. what you see on a daily basis is a figment of your imagination.

I guess there is nothing to look forward to, in life and after.
in your mind.
but not in mine.

up-date

plans plans plans.
I have lots of them.
After school and a slight settlement...I want to write a book.
Well, I want to travel and write a book.
Title Ideas?
that's a secret ;).

Shark Week is currently on my TV. and I love it.

thought: Things happen at the most random times.

Keys this coming weekend. CANT WAIT.

Going to be an Aunt soon...CANT WAIT.

Me and some girls have been doing dinner nights... so far:
fish
taco night
and last night...Homemade CHILI
Delicious!

Cara and I got another piercing :D.

randommmmmmm.

I'm going to buy a violin soon.
and it makes me really happy.

Ive always wanted to learn...and then I realized--I can buy one myself!.
Something new to learn I think will make me really happy :).
CANT WAIT!

still waiting on my new climbing shoes :D. Ive been purchasing a lot lately...but they are all things that will better me as a person...PRICELESS.

later days.

public display of affection

I hate how I use these forms or social media to try and reach you.
I need to come to an understanding that we are farther then ever.

It's now all in my mind.
Fabrication after fabrication.

Building a dream that will soon fall to the ground.
It's my way of filling this vast lonely space.

I've have never been so lonely.
I have never been so alone.